Self-development is key Since I stop drinking and I felt a lot of depressions I realize that after smaller or bigger depression I start to learn and study and improve myself. Actually, it’s a wonderful feeling that you can learn and learn and then you just regret that you waste so much time on useless … Continue reading Tired of your life? Change your thinking.
Yesterday I cried, feel depressed, but today I said to myself – stay strong, bitch! I went today to an AA meeting and I share my feelings. I rarely share – I shy and just afraid of talking in front of other people even if I don’t like them. I share my feeling today as … Continue reading Stay sober, bitch, whatever it takes (AA)
Sometimes I think I am too weak for this crazy world. I feel like I am so bad, I am so big loser, but then I also realize that it is not true. No one can make you feel like looser. You need to stay strong in moments when you feel you are so down … Continue reading Too weak for this world? Stay strong!
First-year of being sober. I am so close to almost 1 year of not drinking – its life-changing. However, it’s really hard. I don’t know how I survive this year. In AA (alcoholics anonymous) they say – do not start relationships while you didn’t reach 1 year of sober. I am the person who needs … Continue reading First-year of being sober
I have a close friend. She has a problem with alcohol. She always had but she never accepts it just now when she knows that some years ago I was in aa (anonymous alcoholics). She knows that I was going there and it really helps. I would suggest each one who wants to quit alcohol … Continue reading Fucking alcohol-it destroy lifes (aa)
Ahh…on Friday I was happy that its Friday (last weekend). Come home after work and start cleaning apartments and drink little bite wine. One glass of one, the second one. Then I offer a girl with whom I am sharing apartment wine too and then the bottle was empty. We take another bottle, then campaign … Continue reading Drinking Friday…
I think I am polygamy women… There are a lot of polygamy men, why It couldn’t be also polygamy women? I have such feeling, not only feeling but I am almost sure that I am one of them. I really can not imagine that I could be trustful to one man until the … Continue reading Polygamy and my Santa Barbara (01/11/2012)
I feel so sad today…again lonely… Last days I really miss some love, hugs, just hugs, and warm words…mans closeness. Just someone who would be close to me, not sex, but just man who would hug me strongly. I want to fall into sleep with someone together, feel him hugs, how he breathes, his … Continue reading Sad today…(26/09/2012)
1.Indecision. Hate, hate and again I hate this character. Very rare I can say straight away strong answer like”yes”, “no”. Usually, my answers are like “Nooo, but yes, probably I could if nothing will change, but I don’t know, we will see how everything will go. However I don’t know maybe better no, we … Continue reading My worst qualities (19/09/2012)
Why I need a boyfriend? I am looking to my girlfriends and thinking they are old or not old, but feel themselves like they are really grown up. They want and pretend to live grown-up people lives, but in reality just go out from kindergarten. For me, it looks funny. Plus or minus … Continue reading Relationships (12/09/2012)