I think I am polygamy women… There are a lot of polygamy men, why It couldn’t be also polygamy women? I have such feeling, not only feeling but I am almost sure that I am one of them. I really can not imagine that I could be trustful to one man until the … Continue reading Polygamy and my Santa Barbara (01/11/2012)
I feel so sad today…again lonely… Last days I really miss some love, hugs, just hugs, and warm words…mans closeness. Just someone who would be close to me, not sex, but just man who would hug me strongly. I want to fall into sleep with someone together, feel him hugs, how he breathes, his … Continue reading Sad today…(26/09/2012)
One more broken relationship. Strange, that I want to write my diary only when I feel bad (now I am ill, that’s why also physically I feel like shit). Again I feel that shitty, depressive mood I will have for some time, and again I will complaining, crying and bla bla bla about … Continue reading Sadness…(07/05/2012)
Weirdest people on Facebook I don’t understand one thing. Where the fucking that kind stupid people born if they allow themselves write to me “Hello, You don’t want sex with my cousin? He is 16 years old? “, ” Hello, do you want awesome sex, I will give you the highest pleasure what … Continue reading The Idiots of Facebook (31/03/2012)
I LOVE YOU Today I understand that I never and to no one said this simple words “I Love You”. No one. Not mother, not father and no one other from family. And if I even never said to my family this words, how could I say it to guys…if even I … Continue reading Words – I Love You (18/02/2012)
I cant understand, where became such people like me. One depression after other. I am not satisfied with nothing and everything is not like I want. I feel lonely as lonely someone can feel but from another side, I have so many people around, I have enough attention from guys but look…such a princess…don’t like … Continue reading Depressive mood (12/11/2011)
Just now come back home and thinking…why the fucking I was drinking again. Okay, actually it was only 2 cocktails (2 bottles of cocktails), and if I compare how I was drinking before it’s not that bad. It’s nice that one guy took me home by car and I didn’t need to walk so long … Continue reading Come home after drinking night (Diary post 15/05/2011 5:14am)
I was writing my diary for many years, hears is my first post 14/05/2011: “Again after a long time, I came back home. I cant describe that feeling. The less often you come home, the more you like here. But there was a time when I can’t wait to get away from, get away from parents, … Continue reading This is time when I understand that life will never be like before (Diary post from 14/05/2011)
