Yesterday I cried, feel depressed, but today I said to myself – stay strong, bitch! I went today to an AA meeting and I share my feelings. I rarely share – I shy and just afraid of talking in front of other people even if I don’t like them. I share my feeling today as … Continue reading Stay sober, bitch, whatever it takes (AA)
Depressed after broken relationships? I fell like I am back to life now again and finally I am over my pain, depression, and obsession of man. What can I say? It was experience and experience in life makes you stronger, more mature in life. After falling down, you stand up and stay stronger than before. … Continue reading Depressed after broken relationships!
Sometimes I think I am too weak for this crazy world. I feel like I am so bad, I am so big loser, but then I also realize that it is not true. No one can make you feel like looser. You need to stay strong in moments when you feel you are so down … Continue reading Too weak for this world? Stay strong!
First-year of being sober. I am so close to almost 1 year of not drinking – its life-changing. However, it’s really hard. I don’t know how I survive this year. In AA (alcoholics anonymous) they say – do not start relationships while you didn’t reach 1 year of sober. I am the person who needs … Continue reading First-year of being sober
Really, am I racist? I am a little bit tired of that because I do not think that I am racist. I am registered in one site what calls http://www.travelgirls.com. In general its site for man an women who like to travel. I write a description about myself and also write that “No Turkish man”. … Continue reading Some people say – you are racist
It is hard… It is so hard to alone all the time. You believe that you are strong, you try to believe in yourself that you will stay strong. It works actually. Believe me, it works if you say the right words to yourself. If you talk to yourself if you say that you can … Continue reading Loneliness
It was 2017 year and as I quit drinking, smoking I thought my life become boring. I was working, studying and after 6 months I thought I want some emotions in my life. Without alcohol, life became a little bit boring. No high or low emotions. I decide to take a vacation in January 2018 … Continue reading 5 days in Jamaica with Rastaman
Awesome Free day Today was a free day. After a long time, I sleep very well, wake up without an alarm clock. It is amazing when you can sleep as long as you can when you wake up and you don’t have a hangover you feel good. Because last 6 months almost every time before my … Continue reading Free day+new lover
I loved drinking wine with dinner. Actually, I loved just the process. In Malta, all wines almost are dry wines. I hate dry wines. Another thing is Blue Nuts with bubbles. I hate bubbles. So … in a place where is so a lot of wine around I could not find any delicious wine. … Continue reading 14 day without alcohol and cigarettes
I did not write for quite a long time. Why? Because actually, I like to write something when I feel bad. When my life, in general, became good somehow I don’t write nothing. When I just move to live in Malta I thought that nothing could help me to become happy. In the beginning, I … Continue reading Malta, alcohol, life, aa