Here it goes. My second day without cigarettes and I am already angry. and hate everyone. I have a lot more energy thats true. I feel happier, fresher – that’s true. My skin finally getting back some little color and looks healthier. And its just the second day. My neck starts hurting today. I guess all shit is going out of my body because I smoked so much in last 2 months.
If we count..I smoke 1 pack in 2 days. So 15 in one month and it’s 30 in 2 months. 10 packs could be plus as when I go out I can smoke almost all pack in one evening. So 40 packs. If you would see it in real… it’s scary. Quitting smoking it’s easy actually when your brains are on the right way when you understand that it should happen like that and that it will happen like that.
Never give up
Today one of my friends asked me – how you managed to quit smoking and drinking? I want it too. I didn’t say that I am going to AA, but one thing I know…I never give up. I had so many relapses before I finally now celebrating one year of being sober. I had so many relapses with cigarettes. I quit so many times that I can’t count anymore. Last time I didn’t smoke 10 months and anyway I start to smoke again. A lot of people would give up, but not me. I start to smoke and then every day feeling bad that I am smoking again and every day I wake up with thoughts that “today I will quit smoking” and every day I crashed.
Now it is time to try again.. I will quit..Just 2 days I am not smoking and I already feel it, and I know that the next 2 weeks everything will make me crazy. Also, my red days is coming and I become crazy even before red days, now plus quitting smoking = its could be a terrible result, but if you already know it before and prepare for it.
Ahhh I am afraid to go crazy and do some crazy things again and regret it later. Guys give me some good thought and girls how you deal with PMS? Do you have any special things what you do?
Monroe :*
