Ahh, I start to smoke again 2 months ago. I was smoking for almost 10 years, then last year I quit. Didn’t smoke for 10 months and then one moment I become so weak, depressed after everything whats happening in my life that I thought just one cigarette I need. One cigarette turns into one pack and then done. I am their again-smoking every day.
Hard to quit
Ahh gosh, it’s so hard to quit. I remember I just wake up one day and decide not to smoke and it turns into 10 months. Now I don’t know how to quit. I wake up every day with thoughts – I will not smoke today. However, I end up every day with smoking. I understand completely that it did not help anything. I do not reduce stress, nothing. You need so big willing to quit and every day you wish that you would not start to smoke.
Easy way how to quit smoking
I know a book by Allan Carr – Easy way how to quit smoking. I read that book many times, I know people who helped that book, it helped me before also to quit one time, second time but I am always back. Back on the smoking road. I am an alcoholic and a smoker. Fuck, sometimes it is so hard to live with all your addictions. I was happy when I didn’t smoke and drink. I was proud of my self.
Effect of smoking.
I realize that smoking took away my energy. Since I start to smoke again, I don’t have energy at all. I can’t do anything. Just want to be in my bed all the time. Also, I realize that my skin changed. I was always very white, but since I quit smoking I find out that actually, my skin has a color. I am not that white. It’s all because of smoking. As I am smoking a lot my skin because unhealthy white and even with the sun I can’t get a color. Just burn my skin. However, when I didn’t smoke I start to have a color for my skin, healthier skin. I was happy that I could look so good. Now my skin is again white, dry and looks unhealthy 😦
Is there anyone who quit smoking and have any new solution on how to quit smoking? I am tired of trying and feel disgusting when I smoke but still do that 😦