Fucking alcohol-it destroy lifes (aa)

I have a close friend. She has a problem with alcohol. She always had but she never accepts it just now when she knows that some years ago I was in aa (anonymous alcoholics). She knows that I was going there and it really helps. I would suggest each one who wants to quit alcohol go to aa (anonymous alcoholics).

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It is sad that you want to help someone but that other person just says “yes, yes you are right” but never take action. People complain about their life but do not want to do anything to change it. They afraid. Fucking afraid of what? To get worst? You already hate your life, you already are unhappy what else you afraid of? I know that if you will not start to do something with your life nothing also will change.

 

Take an action

If you really want to change your life, then start to do something. Nothing will change if you will not do nothing. It is impossible. It is like you are saying “I want to swim” but never go inside the water to try it even. The same with alcohol – if you are saying that you are tired of this alcoholic life, dramas what makes alcohol then just stop drink. You can not stop by yourself? That is why there are many ways and places who can help you. We live in 21 century if you want to solve a problem you just need accept it and then search ways how to solve it. If you just saying that want this and want this but never take an action…believe me nothing will change.

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aa (anonymous alcoholics)

My friend, she is saying: “yes, yes I will go to aa” but she just not going there. She is promising to me go there but never did it yet. She afraid. Fuck I just don’t get it. She afraid of going there but she is not afraid to ruin all her life with alcohol? She is not afraid to stay in that awful, terrible alcoholic life? I know many people whom aa really helps. It helps me too. Okay, now I am drinking a little bit too but not anymore that hard as I did some years before. AA change my mind about drinking. I don’t want to get drunk anymore, now I want a just little bit of wine to get relaxed after work but still, I am thinking to start again go to aa because I don’t want to drink at all.

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My life with alcohol

My life with alcohol became so terrible. Relationship with alcohol was terrible. I had sex only when I was drunk. I date with someone only when I drink a little bit. I get “in love” very fast in someone, and then “crying” so much when the relationship didn’t work. When I was sober actually I did not want to meet with no one of that guys, but when I drink little bit I straight away wanted to meet. When I meet I drink more and more, talk more and more and I really thought that I like those guys. When I start going to aa what a surprise was for me that I liked those guys not because I really liked them but because of alcohol. Really. I get sober and I understand that I don’t like no one of them, that I want a normal guy. I just cut all my guy friend whom I had a lot. Also, I cut a lot of friends. They were not my friends actually. They were with me because we were drinking together. When I stay sober I understand that actually, I don’t want to spend time with them anymore.

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Lonely life

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If you ask any alcoholic how lonely he feels then any of them will answer that he is really lonely. He/she was lonely when was drinking, he/she is lonely when they are not drinking. Everyone is complaining and saying: “actually I was drinking because I feel so lonely”. When they drink they find friends.Bullshit. When you stop drinking you feel lonely because you don’t want anymore spend time with other drinking people. It is not interesting anymore but instead of that, you find a couple of good friends in aa who could be your friends for a long time. I have some. And you know what is more excited? In aa people can talk about everything and you can not judge them for that. With people with whom you are drinking mostly you have “drunk talk” and then you start thinking: ” Was I right that said it to him/her?!” Probably you would never be said that information to him before if you would be sober, but when you get drunk you are saying so much bullshit.

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Anonymous alcoholics that is why it’s anonymous because all of these people had done so much bullshit in her life and they are telling that to all other people. You listen to so many stories, you can talk about your life. About things what you have done when you were drunk. About things that you never can tell any other people. That is why they call it anonymous. When you are going to that meetings, you don’t feel so lonely anymore, you cant talk, you can spend time with them if you want of course.

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Life

Life actually is never easy. Just so fewer people in this life are really truly happy. I don’t know much about them. Actually, I think I don’t know no one who would be really happy this life. Everyone has some bullshit. Me too. Me too have a lot of bullshits in life. I remember when I was younger one of a man said to me: “I like you because you have that happy life thinking still. You are not tired of life yet. That is why I like young girls”. I really can understand that man, I really can understand why older men want to be with young girls- because they are not tired of life yet. They still are happy and think that life is easy, beautiful.

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I wish all of you find your happiness in life. Didn’t stay lonely and don’t feel that loneliness. Everything is in your mind. Everything is in your thinking, and it depends how you are thinking.

 

 

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Wish you all the best:

Monroe :*

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